hang on to your hats!

as my loyal readers know, i’m a great believer in the monty python dictum that people are not wearing enough hats, and all that goes with that. and as we enter this new year, which promises to be the most action packed yet, i want to relax a bit and settle into that sensation of dipping into the river of life, and letting the pace of life dictate the pace of my life, stop pushing the river, take my effing time already. it’s going to be a long year, all 52 weeks of it. so let’s stretch out, and use our time for the primary function it was thought up for in the first place: to stop everything from happening all at once!

for madmen only

so this is the year of self healing, and with that theme in mind, i want to break down a bit how this is going to work for the next 52 weeks, reveal some of the method behind the madness, and introduce you to a few of my guides. 

first things first

for the next 52 weeks i am going to work on one healing agent per week to serve as a theme for monday mornings and the week to come. i’ve begun building the list, and continued adding to it, and i’m still soliciting ideas for healing agents to add to the list, and for this week, we are going to work with the theme of finding a vision of ourselves in wholeness and light. we’ll elaborate on that in a bit.

second things second

so this is what creative lifestyles is all about. i’m a healer and this blog is all about adventures in healing. it’s an introduction to what i do and how it works and how it can be helpful for you. that requires a couple of things:

  1. i have to be clear about what i mean by healing.
  2. i have to be clear about how my particular healing modality operates.
  3. i have to offer examples.
  4. i have to offer things you can take with you and try on for size, like virtual hats!
  5. i have to do all of this at a pace that matches the pace of actual healing.

we’ll elaborate on all those points as well.

third things third

as events warrant, i will be introducing you to a variety of guides whom i have found useful throughout the years, hopefully in context and hopefully in a way that you can use without needing follow the links, which of course will give you the opportunity to deepen your experience with anyone you feel a resonance with.

with no further ado…

totally ditching linearity, let’s just dive into this week and once we’ve surfaced i can clear up anything that seems to need a little bit of extra clarity. and once again: we’ve got a whole year for this project, and a lifetime of years ultimately. there is no rush. maybe that is a meta-theme. and enough with that.

theme of the week!

as i mentioned, this week is dedicated to finding a vision of ourselves in wholeness and light. which tells us a lot about my vision of what healing is all about: wholeness and light! and shining light on our dark hidden places when that is appropriate. gently. with kindness. ooh! two more things to add to my list of healing agents! and without digressing too much, i do want to add that i am highly influenced in matters of time and sequence, and what to do when, by dan furst, who seems to have made a life adventure out of exploring these very things.

and of course, it is always appropriate when starting out on any journey, to begin with a vision. and a journey of self healing would then quite easily lend itself to a vision of wholeness and light. so this week i am dedicating myself to looking at everything i do through these particular eyes, and to spending some good time just visioning myself as whole, and filled with light. in this way i set the tone for just what the heck i am hoping to accomplish with this year: moving myself into a space of more wholeness, more light; less division, less shadow.

and what the heck does that mean?

well slow down and watch the river flow for a moment. wholeness is simply being and accepting all that you are. letting go of the denial of the parts of yourself that you don’t like. accepting everything about yourself. seeing it. and ditto for all the parts of yourself that you can’t quite believe are really true, because deep down inside you know you are not that good. it involves letting go of judgement about yourself and seeing and accepting yourself as you are.

so that’s a tall order. it ain’t going to happen in a week. and that’s why i call it a vision, rather than the vision. this is just a starting point. an opportunity to see yourself a little more completely, a little more deeply. to acknowledge all of your hopes and dreams, your wishes and fears. and to let that vision be filled with light. maybe you can think of this as seeing yourself the way a parent sees a young child…before the darkness sets in.

of course you have the whole year to make the journey into the vision. for this week, i am just going to keep my eyes open and bask in the view. i’ll work with my morning routine of filling three blank sheets of paper with a flow of unedited thought, followed by 15 minutes of heart meditation, wrapped up in a pretty package of 5 minutes of creative visualization, which is the opportunity to see myself as i most desire to be. 

that’s the whole package for this week

yep. pretty simple. just setting a tone and a resonance for the year. starting out with a positive vision and then moving on from there. and of course there is the friday afternoon update! in which i fill you in on the ups and downs and all arounds of the week…in which i give you an example of hoiw this whole thing works. because in general it’s not nice to talk about the people i work with. something about client confidentiality, the right to expose yourself on your own volition, etc.

of course, if you are playing along and you want to expose yourself of your own volition, please feel free to use the comments section of the mmm! or the fau! there is power to growing up in public, as long as its a choice you make for yourself.

now get out there and start your best year ever!

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friday afternoon update! 12: brand new baby

by chas on January 2, 2009

isn’t my new year the most beautiful thing ever?

ah, well, uh, no actually. it’s a little bit smooshy and alien looking. and it seems to need an awful lot of support and guidance!

well yes, i suppose that is all true. still yet, it is my brand new baby, and i think it’s the most beautiful thing ever! and you just wait ’til it grows up a bit. you’ll be eating those words for lunch. and since there is absolutely no substance to them, you’ll be awfully hungry when you are finished!

okay. can we move on?

well that’s the point, isn’t it? fresh brand new years are all about moving on, shaking off the dust, kicking life in the ass…well…maybe we can skip that last one. and you get my point. we are in the season of moving on, new beginnings, and all that stuff you get bombarded with every year about this time. 

and of course it’s the season of good intentions and promises to do better this time around. and as we all know, we can’t live on good intentions, and promises offered are not promises delivered. and enthusiasm is great for getting on the road, yet…especially this bloody cold time of year…it’s always a good idea to check the tires and the fluids before taking the car out for a big trip. it’s good to have some sort of map and get your vehicle pointed in the right direction. and it’s good to have a full tank of gas, and enough cash or credit to keep yourself in gas for the whole journey.

enough metaphors already! let’s get on with it!

well hold on a second. do you want to make it to the end of the year with a sense of that rocked! or do you want to find yourself in a ditch about january 14, and then limp along for 50 more weeks until you can start dreaming about how great 2010 is going to be?

okay…and make it short!

okay then. let’s look at just a few principles that play into this whole resolution disaster we run into most years, and then we’ll look at the week that was. and rather than trying to be a completist, i’m just going to lay out two things you’ll want to look at if you are hoping to make some changes, or bring something new into your life:

  1. it’s hard to carry something new when your hands are full.
  2. it’s hard to fill in up an emptiness without acknowledging that you have one.

looking at both of those ideas a little closer we may be able to increase the odds that you can be the change you want to see in 2009. are you in?

a handful of oranges

imagine that you are standing in the middle of your kitchen with a handful of oranges. and your best friend walks in and offers you an apple. how are you going to take that apple without letting go of an orange or two? i suppose you could make like a roasted pig and say

stick it in my mouth.

and then where would you be? aside from the fact that the fate of a roasted pig is probably not high on your list of hopes and dreams for 2009. well…you could probably get one good bite out of that apple, before it falls to the floor, bruised and dirty. and then where would you be? still standing in the kitchen with a handful of oranges. still wanting that apple…with just a taste in your mouth. and perhaps thinking…

i should have given up one of those oranges!

yep. it’s just one of those things. you have to let something go in order to take something else. and i suppose you could be very clever and eat one of those oranges in order to free up your hands to take on that apple. and that would be a bit gluttonous, don’t you think? and we’re back at that roasted pig metaphor again.

please, don’t make me think of roasted pigs!

okay then. let’s move on to point number 2. say you are standing in that same kitchen with nothing in your hands. and nothing in your belly. and say that same best friend walks in with a basket full of apples. hell, it’s the holiday season…let’s make it a full on fruit basket…apples and oranges and pomegranates and kiwis and bananas and whatever the hell other kind of fruit seems tasty and nourishing to your poor empty belly.

and let’s just say that you are either ignorant of your own needs, or that you have a habit of denying your own neediness, because you think that acknowledging your needs makes you weak, or greedy, or self centered, or some other idea that gets in  the way of you getting present with the reality of your situation.

so if your friend offers you something you just say

that’s okay. i’m not hungry.

or if your friend doesn’t offer you anything you just ignore that lovely basket of fruit along with your own inner hunger. and of course if a fruit basket doesn’t do it for you, you can always imagine a bacon lettuce and tomato sandwich, or a nice piece of chocolate. or some good lovin’. whatever it is that you are lacking. whatever it is that you are craving. whatever it is that you need.

now let’s see if i can tie this all together!

so on monday morning i came up with three different sorts of things to look at this week.

  1. some general observations about my life
  2. front-loading 2009
  3. what the heck about this week?

and now that it is friday (woo hoo! it’s friday! time to start the weekend that follows the mid-week weekend!) i will fill you in a bit on how all of those things played out. and then see about that tying it all together thing.

of motivators and growing up in public

i don’t know what i was thinking when i mentioned that i needed to find a good time to write my monday morning motivator prior to monday morning…i’m working to make my life less of a specific calendarized list of things to do, and more of a thematic flow. so it should have been pretty obvious that once i finish the friday update i am free to start in on that monday thing. so somewhere between friday afternoon and monday morning. mission accomplished!

and on a personal note i am definitely digging deeper and reaching higher. eventually my hands will meet my feet! and it has indeed been a week of opening up more and more, exposing more and more of my complete lack of ability to do almost anything on my own. and placing myself at the mercy of Universe in her many guises. acknowleding the heartache that has led me to my current situation as the homeless provider of a household in which i no longer live. taking deep breaths just writing those words. and overwhelmingly grateful for all the aspects of myself (friends local and remote, living and dead, manifesting themselves physically as well as digitally) that have taken the time to check in with me and offer support.

and day by day i am finding it easier to express my needs and my emptiness to a wider and wider net of astounding individuals. thanks to all of you.

of themes inside of themes

having decided to let go of the overly specific lists of things to do in favor of a more thematic approach to my life, i front-loaded my theme for ‘009 on monday: self healing. and then i popped out a list of different ways to approach that journey. and if you have any thoughts about that i would absolutely love to hear them, as this is the framework for approaching my year, 2009, the year of self healing. as press time on monday i had a list of 16…and i’ve added a few to that list during the present week:

  • vulnerability
  • honesty
  • passion
  • comfort
  • trust
  • education
  • awareness

which brings me to 23 weeks of themes regarding self healing. and i can see now that this is indeed going to be an amazing year.

of magical theater productions

as i mentioned on monday there were some things that i was working on to keep a good focus on ending the year in style and getting this new baby off to the best start. simple things like visioning my new year each morning after my standard morning pages and heart meditation, and the ritual act of growing my beard for a week and then shaving it off on the morning of the first before taking a drive up north for some great yoga, and then heading back to boston to cook up some hoppin’ john and bottle some kombucha. and of course now i have the last kombucha of ‘08 to drink for the next 10 days, and then the first brew of the year the 10 days after that! 

so obviously i am loading everything up with intention this year. intent on making this my most intended year ever. and i was wanting to talk about a couple of other things that will just have to wait ’til monday, because this has dragged on for far too long already!

so what can you tell me about then ending/beginning of your year in 1500 words or less?

and of course if you have any ideas about more healing agents to add to my list…

until next week…

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mmm5! unwashed and slightly dazed

by chas on December 30, 2008

so here i am offering you the audio video version of yesterdays monday morning motivator. and you can always go here.

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hopping john!

by chas on December 29, 2008

hopping what?

okay. this is going to be quick and dirty. hopping john is a dish of black eyed peas cooked with ham hock or salt pork or some other cheap and flavorful pig product, mixed with butter and rice, and traditionally eaten on new years day for good luck. rowan loves it, though maybe just because he likes saying it! at any rate, you can take the boy out of alabama (at 5 months old, yet!), and still…

so how do you make it?

didn’t i just tell you? cook your black eyed peas and rice with some ham hock! 

more details please!

okay.

  • take a cup of dried black eyed peas, picked over for bad peas and little stones (this is a product of the earth, remember)
  • soak the peas in several cups of water for a few hours
  • drain the water and place the beans in a clean pot with 3 cups fresh water
  • add the piece of pig (organic please)
  • cook for 10 to 20 minutes and then add a cup of washed and picked over long grain rice
  • cook for another 20 to 30 minutes until the peas are soft yet firm, and the rice is good and done
  • hopefully the water has all been sucked up by the rice and the peas
  • add butter, salt, and pepper.

and that’s all she wrote!

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getting better all the time

when i started this motivator a month or so ago i stated that i wanted my blog to work for me, something like being able to go to it at anytime and sniff out a clue, a direction to move in, a space to sit in, whatever. and as i sit at the laptop this morning realizing that it is going to take a minor miracle to get this thing published in my morning, i can see that my current process is working against me. rather than get up on monday and write a motivator, i need to be able to get up on monday and read a motivator. or watch one, as the case may be.

so that’s one of the projects on this final week of the year…plotting out a good time to get the mmm all set up for publication monday morning bright and early enough that i can turn to it after i’ve taken care of all the things that scream for my attention when i first roll out of bed. you know, like coffee and chocolate.

growing up in public

so this week definitely feels like the “keep digging deeper while looking higher” week that i kinda figured was coming my way. and funny thing how those two begin to come together in a seamless sort of way. reaching higher and digging deeper is what i’m saying. coming together. so that as i begin to look at the next year, ‘cos this is the time to do that, what i am beginning to see as a meta-theme is self-healing, which means, being the tantric sort that i am, that i’ve got the whole world, including you and you and you, to help me out with that. and of course all of you as well!

yippee! woo hoo! what fun!

boatloads of themes

so front-loading a bit, i’ve got that theme for 09, self healing, and by its very nature a yearly theme just begs for a nice long list of synchronous weekly themes, the healing agents, as it were, which i have already begun, with the help of a few friends. you can help too, if you want. i would really appreciate that.

  • laughter
  • song
  • love
  • sex
  • good food
  • herbs
  • exercise
  • walking
  • yoga
  • shiva nata
  • friendship
  • conversation
  • prayer
  • simplicity
  • patience
  • compassion

whew…that’ll keep me busy for at least…16 weeks!

and what about this week?

well this week is a work in progress of course. originally planned as a one night event, which as all my plans seem to, has come crashing down to earth and broken into several days of paying attention to the theme, which is this case is to settle deep into the ground i have been digging in for the past few weeks, checking this ground out and seeing if i need to dig a bit more (of course!), and then laying back and watching the clouds as they pass by:

  • ooh! that one looks like me laying on a bodywork table! 
  • and wow! that one looks like the true wheel all round and trued, rolling around and helping lots of people find inner peace, happiness, and rock star fulfillment! 
  • and yikes! that one looks like rowan is four and a half and he’s still coming up to me and taking my hands and saying “i want to climb you!”

and what else? well…there is one thing that i’m working on that fits into full-on magic theater activity: i’ve been letting the beard grow since before the new moon…and i’ll shave it off on thursday morning before heading up to newburyport to do some anusara yoga with marc st. pierre, and then heading back home to cook some hopping john!

now i suppose i will have to give you my recipe for hopping john!

oh, and that secret project that i don’t think i’m allowed to talk about yet! don’t get any ideas! i didn’t make it up, i’m just a participant and co-conspirator, and i’ll be sure to offer full-on props once it is up and running for general consumption. until then…it’s a secret!

anything else?

well there is always something else, isn’t there? some creative journaling, a dream board, a vision statement, a new slideshow for the screen saver…anything and everything that helps create a focus in alignment with the theme for 09…self healing…and as always, there will be an update on friday!

how about you? what the heck are you doing this week to help launch the next year?

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friday afternoon update! 11: goodbye 2008

by chas on December 26, 2008

going…going…gone?

hey there! welcome to the last update! of 2008. yep. time flies when you are having fun, eh? and now that we are in the home stretch, it’s worth remembering one important thing…it ain’t over ’til the fat lady sings!

dude…are you ever going to learn to talk straight?

probably not. however, i do promise that i will continue to abide. and ramble for as long as i need to get to the point. so that important thing…well…here we go:

when we don’t really complete the old, we tend to dress it up in new clothes and live it all over again!

wow. lot’s of headings today. and that there has been my second big epiphany of the week, following straight on the heels of the first, which i revealed on monday as 

screw the to do list and focus on the theme.

so in focusing on the theme, digging in, physically first, and just working on the underground level patiently, like fungal mycelium spreading slowly and surely right under our feet until bam! the conditions are right and astounding insights begin to pop into your mind, just like mushrooms popping up out of “nowhere” (now here…geddit?) and covering every yard on the block. ye shall know them by their fruits, as they say.

now we are getting somewhere

so this week, after walking, and getting massaged, and having fun snowy adventures with my son (disguised as trips to the bank and the credit union); after more walks and baths and daily morning pages and heart meditations; this week i began to have a series of astounding insights about the patterns of my life. yikes! 

this is like one of those harvests where, depending on your sense of humor, it’s either “what the hell am i going to do with all these zucchini” or it’s trying to butcher and smoke a moose before the flies get into the mix when really you are just a dumb suburban kid trying to interface the reality of the wild with an image from some books you read some time…

like…bumper crop! lot’s of stuff! and what do i do with it?

whoa mule whoa! when i say whoa i mean whoa!

well…that’s all to be taken care of on monday! for right now it’s just keep on digging, keep on interfacing with the inner network, keep on harvesting the fruits of the inner work. ‘cos the moon hasn’t gone new yet, we’re still in the drive toward ultimate darkness, and i have to go teach a yoga class, drop my car off with the auto mechanic, and give three massages…

and despite the mass of insights i already have to work with…i’m gonna keep on digging and tromping and keeping it physical and focused on yesterday and today…until tomorrow! and of course i promise that in this next phase i will be a bit more forthcoming about this.

and what did you come up with this week?

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the myth of these tough economic times

by chas on December 24, 2008

in these tough economic times

i heard an ad on the radio today, from an auto dealership mind you, that used that phrase. and i have to tell you, it’s starting to get on my nerves. of course i’m a yoga teacher so i’ll get over it. and this is not going to be a screed, so pull your finger away from the delete button. and still…

not that i’ve ever liked that phrase. it bugged me the first time i heard it, not a little because the person saying it is doing pretty alright, actually. nice house, nice car, nice winter coat. and suddenly the stuck market starts to let out a little gas and we are in tough economic times. well hold on a minute. where the heck were all these proclaimers of the times last year? ‘cos i seem to remember seeing a lot of people out on the street, sitting on the bus, working behind the line at dunkin donuts or any of a hundred other places where i always think to myself: 

how do these people make it? how do they pay boston rent and boston grocery prices and all the rest of it?

so suddenly we are having tough economic times?

sheesh. don’t get me started. ‘cos there’s more to this. i’m currently in prime condition to relate to financial difficulty. i’m housesitting, which is a nice way of saying that the people who are letting me live with them are out of town for the holidays. and this is not the post in which i explain what that is all about, so let’s just leave it that i’m not currently in any condition to support two households, so i’m utilizing my resources to support the one i’m not living in.

and a funny thing about that whole homeless thing. i mentioned that to a friend the other day and she said:

you’re not homeless. you can come stay here. as long as you have friends you are not homeless.

which is a nice sentiment and all, and she is a lovely dear person who would probably put me up until the end of time, or december 21st 2012, whichever comes last, and yet…if you are an able bodies adult and you don’t feel free to rearrange the furniture, change the art, and eat whatever you want from the fridge; and you aren’t paying rent or offering some sort of energy exchange that i do not have the time or inclination to offer right now ‘cos i have a life and a business to run by dunford, then you are by definition a mooch, and a homeless mooch at that, being accomodated by your friends and off the streets, perhaps, and homeless nevertheless.

or maybe you can just operate on the phrase “home is where the heart is,” and if you are at one address this week and another the next and who the hell knows where the week after that…you are homeless.

i’m not complaining

so hey, i’ve seen harder times than this. i’m warm. my belly is full. i’ve got a little bit of room left on the credit card, although they just cancelled the one that had a zero balance, sparing me the awful task of filling it up i suppose. c’est la guerre.

and this is just one of those tough economic times in my life…note personalization of phrase to my own individual situation. because here’s the thing that makes my skin crawl and my heart begin whispering “why don’t you go find a nice place to sit down and relax”:

there are people in this country who have never known anything but tough economic times. and this is the richest country on the dunfordized planet! so why the heck didn’t last year count as tough economic times. and every year before that? maybe because the majority of those people have brown skin, or are under-educated, or have bad teeth, or lost their parents at an early age, or are a little “slow”? or maybe because that’s just the story that gets told?

okay, done with screed

so like i said, i’m not complaining. i’ve been down, and i’ve been up. and like i said earlier this week…sometimes you gotta dig in deep in order to spring up high. and because i like a challenge. and mostly because i like to be reminded of just how dunfordizingly hard life is for some people. and how easy it is to forget that when the “hard economic times” isn’t being delivered to the front steps of every fourth house on main street.

and the ironic thing about the radio ad that started this whole thing is that when i heard it i was in a tacky neighborhood store that has been going out of business for the past 12 months, buying several pair of 99¢ socks so i don’t have to choose between doing laundry every five days or wearing dirty socks. and you haven’t even had a chance yet to peek into my organic everything psyche, my nice piece of hand crafted goat cheese from that boutique biodynamic dairy farm up in nosebleed vermont taste in food.

so what’s all this got to do with creative lifestyles?

okay…a little story about rowan, the precocious little three and a half year old whose favorite food is avocado maki, and who has the adorable habit, when i ask him what he wants for breakfast, lunch, or dinner, of putting a finger up to his lower lip and saying “ah…ah…ah…ah va ca do maki!” and then myself, thinking how can i explain this to him without giving him or Universe the idea that i am poor, coming up with the brilliant phrase “i don’t want to spend my money on avocado maki today. let’s have papa doup instead.” papa doup being papa’s soup, usually with some sort of lentil, and in this case butternut squash from the garden.

so then. dirt cheap and amazingly tasty. and perhaps never eaten if i’d had a few extra greenbacks burning a hole in my pocket and whispering “sushi restaurant, sushi restaurant.”

this is not a list

because how creative would that be? rather, think of some time in your life that you didn’t have enough money to buy your way out of using your heart and soul to make something up! think of how much more rich and creative your life would be  if you couldn’t solve all your problems with a credit card? and think of how much more likely it would be that all those problems would begin to look like opportunities if you didn’t have a choice in the matter!

and then think about how often you can choose creator over consumer. how easy it can be to make instead of buy. and how much more satisfying, tasty, and sexy that is. and then sit back for a second and ask yourself the question:

what are you going to do this week to elevate your creativity?  and inspire others to do the same? 

(hint: share a comment!)

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mmm4!, the podcast.

by chas on December 23, 2008

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pardon me if you live in the southern hemisphere

here in boston it is cold, snowy, icy, and dark. well, it’s not dark just now…and in 5 hours it will be. yesterday was winter solstice, and the sun is currently as far south as it will be for a whole ‘nother year. that makes for some long night. lots of dark. and on top of that, the moon is rapidly shrinking, and that thin crescent, which won’t even bother to come out until pert near 4am tomorrow morning, will soon be going completely new.

so it’s dark. longest nights of the year; darkest phase of the moon. dark. and what better thing to do when it’s too dark to see beyond yourself than to look within yourself. that’s right. it’s end of the year time, traditional season for looking back at the year that was, looking forward to the year that will be, and even more important looking deep inside at the being who created the one and is currently creating the other.

theme trumps to do list

so this is one of those weeks when the astrological conditions are so strong that they influence everything with a power best heeded, if you know what i mean. and it is also a week when, given that the sun is as far away from us northerners as it will be for the next year, and the moon is as dark as it will be for the next month, well…that leaves mother earth to be as close to us as she always is! and earth as mother = mater = matter means flesh and blood, skin and bone, solid physical reality. touch it. feel it. spend some time with it.

now two weeks ago i went on a bit about grounding, and that’s certainly part of this process, in honor of which i started my day with a nice apple kale smoothie and plan to bottle and brew a fresh batch of kombucha as soon as i’m done here. not to mention showering and shoveling my car out of the most recent plowing gift from the city of boston. and as foundational as the grounding activities are, the theme this week is a little deeper. dig?

you don’t see ducks lined up to catch an elevator

there’s a hilarious routine that bill hicks does where he reveals his lack of remorse for the archetypal young person high on acid who jumps out of a window ‘cos they thought that they could fly.

don’t go blaming acid on this guy. no no. if he thought he could fly why didn’t he take off from the ground up? you don’t see ducks lined up for the elevator to fly south. no. let him start from the ground; test it out.

or something like that. point being that when we look inward it is easy to get caught up on heavenly vistas and astounding visions of what is to be. and if we haven’t grounded ourselves first we can end up just like that hapless fellow who jumped out of a window to see if he could fly. so let’s start from the ground, yes. and once we are standing on firm ground let’s dig a little deeper. to get a solid foundation. some roots. or as casey kasem would say:

keep your feet on the ground; and keep reaching for the stars

although today, assuming (dangerous, i know) that you have taken care of the feet on the ground part, we are going to reach down a little bit further, to get the root and spring deep enough for the launch that we will be taking next week. just remember, christmas = tree = earth; new years = fireworks = heaven. earth today, heaven tomorrow, okay? remembering of course that in a week you could just as easily say earth yesterday, heaven today. settled? alright.

what are we doing this week?

so this week is the digging week. so that means i’ll be emphasizing the things that will help me get deep within myself to those places that the sun never shines (hey! i heard that!). deep into my physical body, my energy body, my emotional body, and my mental body (it’s a body). and how the hell am i gonna do that? well, primarily by feeling. yep. pretty simple. cheap. easy. and depending on just how much i want to get from this week, i’ll spend more or less time in that state, the state of feeling.

so the more i put into it, the more i’ll get out of it. and since this is the best damn week of the year to do it, i think i’m gonna do it a lot. i think i’m going to go full-on into feeling myself physically, energetically, emotionally, and mentally (yes, mentally). so that means pull out the tool bag and dump everything out on the floor. then arrange in a pleasing fashion, adding just enough order to the chaos to please both the male and the female aspects of myself, the anima and the animus, the god and the goddess.

which tools shall i use?

that’s not the question!

i’m using them all!

the question is: when?

well the answer is: sometime this week!

that’s right. dump out the toolbag. all those deepening, exploratory, feeling tools. and use as many as you can for the next 7 days.

  • yoga
  • massage
  • journaling
  • sitting meditation
  • walking meditation
  • enlightened food preparation

whatever the hell comes out of the bag that looks useful. pick it up. play around with it. have fun with yourself!

ground rules

now remember, this is a blog post, not a bloody ebook or something like that. this is just from finger to keyboard to screen. it’s a draft, a sketch. and with that in mind there are a few things worth keeping in mind.

  • physical first
  • energy second
  • emotions third
  • mental last
  • alone is easier than with a partner
  • groups are extremely challenging

so there we go! what a fun week! and what a fun next year it is going to bring our way (and let’s not think about that until next week!).

so that’s my week. how about yours?

wow! halfway into the first day of my week and i’ve already had my first epiphany! screw the to do list and focus on a theme. as if my little mind, which wrote the to do list in the first place, can’t come up with an equally daunting and impossible to complete list any time i ask it to!

and yours?

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home sweet home

after a week of long days, sleeping in the spare room of my dear friends kami and akesha, i’m settling into a period of relative stability in roslindale, on fairview street, which does indeed have a fair view, and which also leads up a hill and then down a hill straight in the arnold arboretum, which if you don’t know boston is simply beautiful, peaceful, and restorative. a little break from the constant need to think which is endemic to this area.

and out the window in the little office nook i am lucky enough to have this week (thanks kristin!) the snow is finally coming down. first storm of the season. inviting a bundling up and a trip up that hill and down that hill to that very arboretum of which i have just spoken. or written. or whatever. i’ll be there.

and first there is this. the update. the bringing it all up to currency. today.

a tale of the instability of stability

and first, before we can get to today, a little story from several years ago. it was the mid nineties and my mother had gone missing. i called and got one of those annoying little robots with the ascending beeps and “the number you have dialed is no longer in service” thingy…and the “no other information available at this time” thingy.

well…not the sort of thing expected when calling my mother, who never changed anything, unlike her son who is always changing everything. well eventually of course i found her. apparently my sister had taken it upon herself to move my mother from her apartment in honolulu, where she had lived for something like 21 years, to an apartment in florida, where she lasted something like a week.

don’t get me started! that is another story altogether. not suited for a simple family blog like this. more like an ittybiz kind of thing, which is ironic, since my father was a sailor and he really couldn’t hold a candle to naomi dunford. and, well, been there done that. currently incarnated as clean-languaged; will use asterixes or translation page as needed.

so the story i’m telling goes thus, given to me by my sister, a week or two after the fact:

which key does what?

after a week in her own apartment, my mother ends up living with my sister, after said sis notices that said mom can’t seem to figure out which key goes in which lock. i’m assuming that this was a long, drawn out, terrifying moment for my sister, discovering that her mother, who seemed fine a week before, is suddenly lost and confused and can’t find her way home while standing on her own (dunfordism) doorstoop! ay yi yi!

why didn’t you tell me, my sistered yelled in my general direction. why didn’t you consult with me i replied. and that is indeed another extremely dunfordized story.

and this story? what the heck are you going on about with this story? well, let’s put the pieces together, remembering, of course, that this is just one interpretation of many. i’m not propping it up as the absolute truth, the way things are, or were, as the case may be. and it’s the one that makes sense to me, and that i’m hanging all this other verbage around, so here goes:

the dark side of stability

my mother lived an extremely stable life. you could set the clock by her actions. church on sunday followed by a trip to the grocery store, to buy the same things as the sunday before. i suppose she could have called and said “i’m on my way” and they could have said “we know, just walk up to checkout number three, everything is bagged and ready to go.” and on and on.

of course it wasn’t always quite so extreme; and as the years went buy the channel got more and more narrow, and repetition trumped variety on a regular basis. so when she up and flew away to florida, well…where’s the church? where’s the grocery store? where’s the carrots and broccoli? and the onion dip?

where are the keys and whose doorstoop am i standing on and why are you looking at me all funny like that darling?

yep. stability meets change and it crumbles like maytag blue on a spinach salad. and instability? well, instability meets change and it thrives, fills in the cracks, and turns into something nobody ever thought of before. like blue cheese! and woo hoo for that. ‘cos we all know that change is coming, right?

and that was the week that was

since we were working the failure meme this week, let’s look at everything in terms of success and failure. and none of that mamby pamby new age rationalization and re-definition of failure: if it got done it goes in the success column, and if it didn’t then it goes in the failure column. now if i could figure out how to insert some columns here i could do that! then again…i like the word column more than i like the visual…

things that happened!

woo hoo! i went to the bank, i washed my clothes, i floated the housesitting meme, and i attended a wonderful concert put on by the students from the conservatory lab charter school of boston. that was probably the most fun of the week; watching rowans eyes light up when he saw a bunch of six year olds playing twinkle twinkle on their violins. and then tripping over to chinatown for herbs and pho afterwards was the coupe de grace.

of course the school choice process is still going to be dreadful and boring (he smiled ironically and sincerely at the same time), and perhaps it will be filled with other joys of equal magnitude.

also managed to change my cell phone plan to stop that dratted 45¢/min from kicking in. and entered the amazon points and got some xmas/solstice/hanukkah presents.

things that didn’t happen

  • didn’t hire a va (got some leads)
  • didn’t get any bodywork (something about a snow storm…)
  • didn’t finish all my bureaucratic nonsense (know how to spell it now!)

fail again? fail better?

things that kinda happened

i know, this is kinda waffly. still…

  • i got two cd’s burned for rowan…not quite a mess of cd’s and dvd’s on my list

and that was my filled to the brim and where the heck does the time go week! i guess i must have been busy teaching and stretching people out

how was your week this time around? failures? successes? redefinitions? and what is your favorite thing to do in silent snow?

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